My week has been full of movement without a lot of pressure from me to move it. My Ben Franklin makeover word this week was courage, the ability to do something that frightens you. How suiting when the Master Key Part 19 spoke about fear and its physical effects on a person. I have had many struggles with fear throughout my life. The one’s I saw as outside of me I handled with courage like standing up to a bully for another, getting in trouble to help a friend, traveling alone or even fighting cancer. However, most of my fears were self-created in my attic based on my judgments about the judgments of others towards me. Now that’s a crazy merry-go-round. One that has made me sick on several occasions. These fears found a place to live in my mind and they took hold of my choices and actions, creating awkward gaps in my creation called life. Over the last few months,I have been methodically shining the light on them and sweeping at them with love and courage. Part of my DMP states, ” I am courageous in my choices. I give up living by the judgments and expectations of others. I give love to myself, which in turn allows me to give more love to others.” This is beginning to take hold and becoming more of who I am. On Monday, I watched “Finding Joe” about Joseph Campbell and his work with a pattern hidden in every story throughout time, the hero’s journey. The hero is called, he must answer the call, he must pass through the abyss, and he must slay “his” dragon. Then he can return and share his journey with others. I know I am on that journey, just some days I’m not sure what part. I know there is a dragon and it’s in the back of the attic in the shadows, but courageously I move forward.
I have recently decided to move on from my kindergarten position, and explore other areas. I have received positive feedback from everyone I’ve talked to, including family members I thought might be concerned about our finances. This week I was notified that my room would be used for a new Montessori class, and that I would be moving all the materials out to another smaller room. Perfect timing to just move my things home. In the last two days, I have chosen a real estate school to get my licence and have been in training for my internet business.
I talked to several folks about my business this week. And although that is still hitting a few fear walls, I pushed a bit back into activity. I also attended a seminar with Big Al Schreiter on Tuesday, which was about talking to people in a way that relaxes everyone including me. He was so insightful, as well as funny, I know I will look more into his work. Also I loved the Ted Talk by Amy Cuddy about the power pose study. A power pose done in private for 2 mins. can change your hormone levels to increase testosterone(confidence) and lower cortisol (stress). Gives you courage just when you need it most and trains your brain to take that physical cue on demand. I need that extra courage when talking to others and being enthusiastic about my decisions. I saw this last year on a sitcom called “Odd Mom Out”. Should have started using it then. LOL
As they say in the Hero’s Journey, I have a dragon to slay and a little courage might be required. So here’s to good habits of thought and power. And a wonder woman pose for extra luck.